Patsy Cline + A Bath

Patsy Cline Live

You find peace not by rearranging the circumstances of your life, but by realizing who you are at the deepest level.  —Eckhart Tolle

I’m not sure why I stopped writing and let this old blog expire, along with the posts and stories I had written. But I’m here again, writing. Because I missed it and I need it back again.

K went back to school today and it was so great seeing him. Spending time with him and his “day one” girlfriend. I love this new, adult relationship I have with him The openness of it. I am so happy for him, that I could cry sometimes.

And I think to myself, that person I am with him….is me at the deepest level. Loving, sensitive, open, expressive, affectionate. I want to stay centered here. Memorize how great this feels. Put myself in a bubble and remove myself from people who I let compromise this side of me or who rattle me.

For a very long time, probably starting around the time I let this original blog go, my priorities screwed up. Never fully present, always looking somewhere else. I lost the me I was or was growing up into. I think….14 years ago? :::insert an image of ‘The Scream” painting::: Google it, if you don’t know it.

But it’s never too late to pick up these pieces and make them a whole again. Never.

So I’m sitting here tonight in a hot bath, with my ipad, some tea, a lit candle, bath salt, a treat and Patsy Cline playing. My son is safely back at school. I’m enjoying the night, Pepto Bismal soothed stomach, writing, a little working, a little socializing. It was a great weekend, filled with <3

Let the writing begin 🙂

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