You find peace not by rearranging the circumstances of your life, but by realizing who you are at the deepest level. —Eckhart Tolle
I’m not sure why I stopped writing and let this old blog expire, along with the posts and stories I had written. But I’m here again, writing. Because I missed it and I need it back again.
K went back to school today and it was so great seeing him. Spending time with him and his “day one” girlfriend. I love this new, adult relationship I have with him The openness of it. I am so happy for him, that I could cry sometimes.
And I think to myself, that person I am with him….is me at the deepest level. Loving, sensitive, open, expressive, affectionate. I want to stay centered here. Memorize how great this feels. Put myself in a bubble and remove myself from people who I let compromise this side of me or who rattle me.
For a very long time, probably starting around the time I let this original blog go, my priorities screwed up. Never fully present, always looking somewhere else. I lost the me I was or was growing up into. I think….14 years ago? :::insert an image of ‘The Scream” painting::: Google it, if you don’t know it.
But it’s never too late to pick up these pieces and make them a whole again. Never.
So I’m sitting here tonight in a hot bath, with my ipad, some tea, a lit candle, bath salt, a treat and Patsy Cline playing. My son is safely back at school. I’m enjoying the night, Pepto Bismal soothed stomach, writing, a little working, a little socializing. It was a great weekend, filled with <3
Let the writing begin 🙂