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Almost 9 Months
Kinda like a pregnancy. And I think I just had the baby. Say what you want, think what you want. That’s a you problem. I removed your broken seat from my table. Best decision I’ve made in 20 years. If you don’t like people talking about how your actions hurt them, that’s also a you… Continue reading
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Yuck
Not sure why, but today has been kind of icky for me. I hate how this feels. Ended up taking a nap, which reminds me of how I used to feel when I was involved with the toxic one. Cranky, depressed. Looking for a mindless escape. I don’t like it I don’t want him back… Continue reading
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Ahhhhh
Today. Ahhhh, in the best way. My son is away on a business trip. His first. After a year of being home, constantly. My hubby is working late and I have about another half an hour of peace. This is the first time I have had a day completely to myself in………????? I worked. I put… Continue reading
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Six Month Mark
Time’s a flying. It’s been a little over 6 months and a New Years Eve. So how’s it going? Mostly good :) So much of my old self is coming back, but I do have my moments. Quite a few lately. I guess old habits die hard. My brain wanders to what he’s up to these… Continue reading
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Sad But True
My sweatpants fit me better when they’re on backwards. Translation: My stomach is now bigger than my ass. Yup. Continue reading
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Voices
That thing I said about the anxious feeling going away at night. It’s definitely better, but not gone entirely. I’m finding that when I’m stressed out and get that anxious feeling, my head connects it to the ‘toxic one’. And I have conversations about it in my head. My mind’s voice talking to the rest… Continue reading
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How It’s Going
It’s been almost 4 months since I hit ‘block contact’ on a very toxic person. The block of course doesn’t mean: forgotten. It’s been almost 4 months plus 5 days since I received a toxic reply that reminded me I had done the right thing. So how’s it going? Well for one and def the… Continue reading
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Three Words
Here’s a question for you: If you could give your younger self advice using just three words, what would they be? I thought about the people things said to me along my life. The actions I made okay and words I let affect me. The experiences and feelings that sit with me now. Being someone’s… Continue reading
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Listening
My hair has been a train wreck. Rainbow shades of brown, brass and pumpkin in trying to let myself gradually go grey. The styling of it, a non style that never does much. This all coming from someone whose hair was one of the features I liked best about myself I’d stayed with this stylist,… Continue reading